Coming To Grips

Psalm 4:5: “In your anger do not sin…”
Me: [angry about at least 15 things]
P4: [waiting while I justify myself in every case]
Me: But I’m angry because THEY have sinned!
P4: Yes, but this prayer is between you and me.
Me: …
P4: Let’s continue, then?

Psalm 4:6(b): “When you’re on your beds, search your own heart…”
Me: WHAT ABOUT THEIR HEARTS???
P4:”… and be silent.”
Me: [seriously considers ending prayer]

Me: [checks Twitter]
Me: [cleans guest bathroom]
Me: [paints entire upstairs a nice shade of grey]
Me: [builds back deck]
Me: [reads War and Peace]
Me: [learns Japanese sign language]
Me: [plants and harvests a vinyard]

Psalm 4: Glad you’re back. You ok?
Me: No offense, but I much prefer Psalm 23.
P4: lol
Me: I’m serious.
P4: Let’s move along?

Psalm 4:6: “Offer right sacrifices and trust in the LORD…”
Me: WHAT DOES THIS MEAN???
P4: Trust me (your God) with your whole body, mind, and strength.
Me: That’s all? hahaha
P4: I’m actually not done.
Me: Sorry.
P4: And trust me (your God) to deal justly with your enemies.

Me: [slowly coming to grips that I am not God]

Psalm 4: [now addressing me very directly and pointedly]
Me: [paying close attention to God, which, I see now, is praying]

Psalm 4. Trust my wisdom and kindness.
Psalm 4: Trust me with your loved ones.
Psalm 4. Trust me with your calling and passions.
Psalm 4. Trust me with the needs of the world.
Psalm 4: Trust me with your present and future.
Psalm 4: Trust me with your past, your sin, and your shame.
Psalm 4: Trust me not to leave you or condemn you.
Psalm 4: Trust me to make a way in the dark.
Psalm 4: Because you are mine.

Me: “And I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety.” (Psalm 4:7-8)

Peace to you today, because our trust and rest is ever in the LORD.

Kim

10 responses to Coming To Grips

  1. Toni Morse says:

    Dear Kim,

    If you are ever in Colorado Springs, will you stop by for a glass of iced tea or a cup of coffee on my back porch? I’m serious. I love your words and I know I’d love your heart. Our families are similar in size and style and I want you to know how much I appreciate when “a breath” shows up in my inbox.

    Blessings on your head.

    Toni Morse

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  2. Chris says:

    One of your best! Captures so well where we wrestle.

  3. Wendy Bray says:

    I look forward to seeing a “breath” in my inbox but this one what exactly what I needed to hear today. This is an issue I definitely struggle with. Thanks for letting me know I am not alone and the words needed to let go and let God.

  4. Given Breath says:

    Toni! I’d love to share some tea anytime. I offer the same to you when you come to my porch in Austin. Thank you for the note, And for the blessings on my head. May the peace of Christ be with you and all of yours.

    Kim

  5. Given Breath says:

    Thank you Chris and Wendy,

    May our wrestling always draw us nearer to the One who holds us in his grip.

    kim

  6. Joy says:

    Thanks you for this. I really needed to hear this today.

  7. Anonymous says:

    Very effective post. Well written.
    Marjorie

  8. Cree says:

    Thank you dearest Kim!!! I had to smile as I read your devotion…so creative to have the Psalm speak to us!!
    I learned so much. Love to you and your sweet family.
    Cree

  9. Cindi says:

    This was awesome! So personal – so God!
    I look forward to your posts always! God speaks!

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